Baby Bailey #3

Sweet baby, 

It's about 11pm the night before your birth day and I wanted to write down some of my thoughts. I don't really have enough time to polish and organize my thoughts, but thought it was important to get them down anyway, so you'll have to forgive the disjointed post.

After a miscarriage in January at almost 11 weeks I was anxious to get pregnant again. Your dad and I really felt like we were ready to meet the newest member of our family so I was elated when I found out I was pregnant with you. At the same time, I have been nervous this whole pregnancy that something might go wrong. You've been doing a lot of kicking these last few weeks and while sometimes I jokingly got upset with you ("Ouch, baby!") I welcomed them because then I knew you were ok in there.

 I am a little nervous about the delivery since they have always been rough for me, but we (your dad, brothers, and I) cannot wait to meet the newest addition to our family! I can't believe it's gone by so fast! A small part of me is actually kind of sad to not be pregnant anymore. There's something really special about feeling life inside of me.

The boys have been absolutely adorable this entire pregnancy. Every night they want to hug and kiss my belly and tell you good night. Nolan especially never ever forgets. And they never forget to include you when we're talking about how many people are in the family. For instance, if I mention that mom and Branson are going on a special outing they'll pipe in, "and baby!" Especially during the second trimester every single time I'd come in the door from work they'd run to me and say, "Baby!!!!!" (notice they didn't shout for me, just baby haha).

Last few days with B as my baby. I have a feeling Branson is going to quickly go from my 'little baby' (don't tell him I said that, he's a "big boy!") to a ginormous, unpredictable wrecking ball haha.

B is in charge of binkies and N is in charge of bottles. I have no doubt those brothers of yours are going to love you so much. They've been fighting a lot lately and going from best friends to mortal enemies the next minute. Branson has been whining and overreacting to everything and Nolan knows exactly how to push his buttons. I'm hoping you will bring more love and sweetness that we need into the house (no pressure)

We still haven't figured out your name. I want it to be something you will like. I have one name that I really like, but your dad won't go for it because it's too short haha. Oh Justin. We'll see what we come up with! I'm hoping when we see you we'll have some sort of epiphany.

We're so curious what you will look like. Nolan wants so badly for you to have blonde hair and blue eyes like him, I'm afraid he'll be a little disappointed if that's not the case. Oh well, he'll love you anyway.

Tonight we met Gm Bailey at Corner Bakery for dinner so she could take the boys for an overnighter (or two) while we focus on getting you here safe and sound. Your dad talked to your brothers about how much attention you will need at the beginning, but that we will still love them and try to play with them as much as we can. Your grandma seemed pretty excited to meet her newest grandbaby as well :).

Above all I just want you to know how much you are already loved, and we haven't even met you yet!! I'm sure that love will grow exponentially the moment we lay our eyes on you. I'm going to bed now to try to get some rest. I can't wait to meet you tomorrow! Please get here safe and sound!